lost and confused

we argued again yesterday
not face to face, but indirectly thru blogs
im blamed that not caring enough
yes, i admit it, im not tat caring and loving

sigh, im totally lost
i dont know what should i do now
how can i become a good gf?

he wishes i can always think of him and care for him
as if he's very important

yes, i care of you so much, really
why dont you try to understand my situation now
maybe i dont understand you either
and our conflict still exists there

i cried and cried
for what
im getting tired, i have a feeling of giving up this relationship
but i cant, i dont want to give up
because i love you

i wish this relationship can go on further
but i dont know how to make you to understand me
and i dont know what i should do to make you feel happy
im confused

i feel very dizzy and frustrated
sorry, sorry and sorry
i apologize